lol. well im mr positive. im not gonna let it bother me lol...

lastnight was pretty bad just sitting there the whole night...

words were barely passed around and nothing went the way i thought it would..

sooo i started to feel weird the whole night till lisa came over...

then things were back to normal tilll... we got back to the house...

me ant lisa and chels were watching a very shittttty movie her mom picked lol..

hahaha watching chels jump was kinda enjoyable lol.. the movie was boring as hell..

watching lisa and ant cuddle to the right of me was fucking awesome...

and to my left where chels was sitting 60 million miles away was not..

haha i guess the night was a fail of "weirdness" and "couldnt helps"

sooo chels got on the comp and me and this kid henry were watching kat williams all night..

end of that.... me and chels talked about stuff... well i did... lol...

sooo i slept on the couch lastnight... i was like i wont be able to sleep...

BULLSHIT... that couch was bangin.. lol i passed the fuck out watching

the N shows... dagrassi or whatever.. i dont noe why i was watching it..

sooo sitting there with my girl scout thin mints.. i was like hmmmm...

how am i getting home... fudgeeee.. after an hour and a half of attempts..

shaggy was the only person to pull through... thank god... sooooo...

i got home and i helped my dad out with stuff... passed out... again...

woke up worked out and felt fucking awesome... and cant wait to get fit again...

im gonna work myself to death... lol i wanted how i was in football. that would rule..

sooo im guessing im waiting till chels gets home soo we can chit chat about stuff

im not gonna let things about relationships bother me anymore... well ill still care...

but i gotta get back on my feet and stop worrying about small ass things....

im gonna stop holding grudges about shit... and give people chances again...

anddddddddd get my shit together... i have a lot of stuff gonna be going on really soon...





and yeahhh... things would be better if i had a car... but i dont sooo im sorry lol... wait around i guess? if u still want to..

sundayyyy was very boring i slept and was on the phone from 4 30 to 2am with different peoples alll nighhhhht

soo that was my sunday night


sat was 14 hours of pure fun cus of you
maddddd cute dayyy man. i miss you alreadyyy


maddddd tired... i got practice today.

good amount of heads are gonna be there

i woke up... went to practice... recorded..

wanted sooo bad to stomp on that fucking kid

ummm got home chilled out

then saw unborn


STUPID FUCKING MOVIE

thee end

was an oki day

i stayed up all night. went to practice, then went to josh's

delt and played poker

then got home at 1am

im tired and bored.

... not done.... add more around 4am

its always this time where i post.... 6am

insomnia is getting worse...

there are alot of things bothering me


but im still tryna keep positive..

alright

nothing has changed. im almost out of debt

imma get a car prob like a month after i get out of debt

im fucking bored with life right now

its fucking horrible

i need excitement

fuck im about to go crazy for awhile

watch out haha

nothing hasss changed besides a couple girls in my life

ummm got closer with sum friends

ill be out of debt in a month

thank fucking god

might be playing shows next month

still need a vocalist

i need money

still only working two days a week and need another job

i dont fucking noe mannn

im gonna try to write in this as much as possible im fucking slacking

ummm nothing really. i'm just tryna to get my shit together

still havent hung out with any fucking one

umm still see jonny d like every day of my life. my fucking nigga

ummm shows? i need a car... getting one soon

cant fucking wait till after new years imma have my life settled

ummm need to get in shape. like bad lol... im fucking slacking

i still have the best view in life and its not gonna change for fucking no1

i still think most of u are scumbags and im fucking right

ughhhh this girl at work is driving me nuts lol... all i want is dinner lol

oh wells.. relationship?? i want them. but got no time for them. but ill try my best

sooo worked with my dad on monday

then tues came around and me and john finished a song thats soo retarded heavy made me go nuts

then today he was sick soo we just chilled in his house and i got an idea for a intro


then got home and talked to lisa for like two hours

then chilled out and talked on aim... i realized that im happy keeping everything simple. chills me out

im starting to realize alot of shit its wack and im having such a better positive outlook. everything that is negative i learned to take it and make it positive sumhow i just do

im starting to be more normal then ever. like my creative side of me in music and personally is starting to get better now. its wack.

im still trying to push my self

sooo tmw im gonna finish mowing the lawn then after that im gonna go back to johns cus hes gonna feel better then finish the intro and then write a outro then if i have enough time ill write a song or start one

say noun niggga

sooo yeahh today my dad was annoying the fucking shit out of me with selfish ass acts and shit


but anyways

but things got better along the ways.... the shed is coming out great

then jonny d and alan came over and we chilled joked around then drove to random places

then went home

i missed thoses kids havent seen them in a min. it was good seeing them

sooo now ummm tmw is gonna be a bizy ass day and at night i dunno what im doing

im prob bizy the rest of the week being at johns house writing

and i think i might stop by into cvs on thurs to visit paige

i dunno i've been on the edge latly....

its wack... i still feel like im loosing touch with the people real dear to me but im getting better at it

oh wells im the king of moving on from people... fuck it lol i've been alone my whole life

i made a call home to vietnam tonight... i miss my family there sooo much

i want to go back sooo bad...

anyways im making the best of everything right now

main focus is a job and music right now.... and spending time with my dad.

girls come last lol....

sooooo monday i was working with my dad all day and then did nothing

tuesday i have no idea what i did i think nothing at all and played guitar

then wens thrus and friday i was at johns house writing and got out 2 and a half songs

and today was a break and this lame storm and im doing nothing.. my guitar is at his house

sooo tmw if the storm stops me and my dad are gonna work on the shed again after church

im really happy with the 2 songs we have down. and the one we have started is sooo weird sounding but imma make it heavy

finally i get to play music again. i think its the only thing that helps my mind get threw this rough time of unemployment

i still miss my best friend tho... shes doing all good for her self and shit im happy for her but i guess im not gonna get to see her for a long time maybe months who noes. sucks. oh wells


i dunno its wack i really wanna be in a relationship (not her) but i cant cus my life is in shit right now soo i gotta keep my chin up and stay positive which i've been tryiing for the pass week. and im still gonna have a positive out look

well my plan is to get like 6 songs down. an intro and outro also. then look for members i have a few people in mind mikey g wants to try out soo imma see how he is. then there is couple bass's in mind. then im gonna look for a vocalist

im really fucking bored....

me and john been working really fast and work well with each other
we both give each other ideas and have the same taste in music
sooo hopefully everything gets tight soon

and also i still need to take sum photos
anyone wants em let me noe